.: I Am A Mess :.

i laugh, i socialize

but i'am a mess

i go to meetings, i go to classes, i go to work

but i'am still a serious mess

in between, tears come running down my face

i wonder how long it's going to be before i stop crying?

things that were supposed to cheer me up left me untouched

can't you see what a total mess i've become

being a mess is really taking a toll on me

i eat less and the mood swings are unbearable

i could be normal at one time and easily fall apart at another

i hope this pain subsides

and i hope i don’t spend every moment trying not to think about it

because i know i’ll end up sobbing again