::WaRkah TeRakhIR::

Bila yang teRtulIs untukku
Adalah yang teRbaIk untukmu
Kan kujadIkan kau kenangan
Yang teRIndah dalam hIdupku
Namun takkan mudah bagIku
MenInggalkan jejak hIdupku
Yang telah teRukIR abadI
SebagaI kenangan yang teRIndah

~Muhasabah Cinta by EdCoustic~

Wahai... Pemilik nyawaku
Betapa lemah diriku ini
Berat ujian dariMu
Kupasrahkan semua padaMu

Tuhan... Baru ku sadar
Indah nikmat sehat itu
Tak pandai aku bersyukur
Kini kuharapkan cintaMu

Kata-kata cinta terucap indah
Mengalun berzikir di kidung doaku
Sakit yang kurasa biar jadi penawar dosaku
Butir-butir cinta air mataku
Teringat semua yang Kau beri untukku
Ampuni khilaf dan salah selama ini
Ya ilahi....
Muhasabah cintaku...

Tuhan... Kuatkan aku
Lindungiku dari putus asa
Jika ku harus mati
Pertemukan aku denganMu

~SombonG~

Jika kAmu mau sombong..

kAmu akan kehilangan seorg kawan..

Malah kAmu telah mengecilkan hati kawan kAmu itu..

Jika kAmu tidak mau sombong..

KAmu akan dapat kawan yg setia dgn kAmu..

Malah kAmu akan di doakan yg baek baek saja oleh kawan kAmu itu..

Tapi apakan daya..

KAmu telah memilih untuk terus menyombong..

Maka dgn ini, hiduplah kAmu dgn dunia kesombongan kAmu itu..

Sesungguhnya kawan kAmu ini tetap setia mndoakn kesejahteraan kAmu d sana..

~ Insha Allah by Maher Zain

Everytime you feel like you cannot go on
You feel so lost
That your so alone
All you is see is night
And darkness all around
You feel so helpless
You can’t see which way to go
Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side

Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Everytime you can make one more mistake
You feel you can’t repent
And that its way too late
Your’re so confused, wrong decisions you have made
Haunt your mind and your heart is full of shame

Don’t despair and never loose hope
Cause Allah is always by your side
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah you’ll find your way

Turn to Allah
He’s never far away
Put your trust in Him
Raise your hands and pray
OOO Ya Allah
Guide my steps don’t let me go astray
You’re the only one that showed me the way,
Showed me the way x2
Insha Allah x3
Insya Allah we’ll find the way

::thnx 4 introducing de song safa..

Because You Loved Me - by Celine Dion

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

:: i dedicate dis song 2 evri1 i noe..my family,my bffs..my friends..my colleagues..any1 who has

eva touched my heart..i am forever thankful..May Allah bless you..

~Pilih kaseh~

Ini tidak adil!!!!

Sengaja ataupun tidak

Itu memang tidak adil!!!!

Ini buat saya marah

Itu buat saya kecik hati

Dan trus makan hati

Ini hati saya tak suke

Itu paru paru baru saya suke

Jemput lah makan anda semue

Pada Mu Allah

Daku Bermohon

Pada Mu Allah

Daku Bersyukur

Ku Yakin Pada Mu

Bantulah Hamba Mu

Dalam Mencari Keredhaan Mu

Nikmat Mu Allah

Melimpah Ruah

Kebesaran Mu Mendidik Hamba Mu

Taman Syurga Mu

Terbentang Indah

Pada Hamba Mu

Yang Banyak Beribadah

Oh Tuhan Ku

Berilah Hidayah

Pada Hamba Mu

Yang Sedang Resah

Redhailah Kami

Ampunilah Kami

Dalam Mencari Keredhaan Mu

To Whom It May Concern

I was nobody back then..well,atleast I felt that way..i was alwiz de shadow following you..we’re a package..but they only focus on you..come to think of it..i wasn’t alwiz like that..people knew me becoz of me..even wen I don’t give a damn about dem..wut goes around comes around I guess..

I have issues with de whole lot..i believe I’m invisible to dem..if people ask me to describe de whole lot in 1 word..i wud have answered..’sayu’..my heart sank wheneva I recall dem..tipula nak ckp I dun have good memories with dem..i do..n I’m more than thankful to be apart of dat..it’s juz de fact that my existence wasn’t appraciated haunts me till now..i tried to shake it off..but it wudnt go away..

Yes..i wasnt appreciated..that’s my answer to you..you once ask me about this..i finally figured out how to put in into words..

Little did I noe..we wud reunite with dem..at first,excitement washed over me..but it faded so quickly…I wasnt prepared with de emotional rush..even after 5years..nothing changed..i tried to grab their attention..then it occurred to me..why shud i??if they dun give a damn about me,why shud I bother with dem..relax2 sudaaa…so, I took de same road I used to take not long ago..i stepped aside..im keeping a low profile..i’m keeping my distance..

My dear, I moved on…I gained new frens along de way..friends who acknowledge me for who I am..frens who appreciated me..frens who befriended me becoz of me..i dun have to prove myself to dem..i dun have to susah2 catch their attentions..

Now,here’s my dilemma…while I moved on..you hold on to dem..(not that it’s a bad thing..it’s not.believe me..if I were in your place..i wud have done de same thing)..but I’m sorry for not feeling wat u’r feeling..i’m tryin not to be selfish here..i’m happy if u’r happy..i respect dem as your frens..no worries..i ‘m gud at acting..

Thru dis letter..i only hope you wud understand why I’ve acted de way I’ve acted b4..remember de 3musketeers?well..dis letter applies to dem as well..i’m too sensitive with de whole lot..as I told u b4..i have my own frens..its not dat I dun want to be apart of dem, u’ve no idea how I wished to b accepted..its juz dat I’m not convinced enuf if I were ever apart of dem..i’m still looking for signs..signs to show that I mean sumthin to dem..signs that shows I’m remembered when I’m not around..i noe I’m asking too much..gle ngade2..hee…dat’s why I dun go bothering dem anymore..tibe2 rase mcm if look for dem..maknenye I kaco mreka..sy xnak d chop begitu..

There..i finally confessed to you..juz hear me out..i dun expect you to do anything other than dat..i love u..i cherish our friendship..kite kan nak tua same2..pastu katil pn sblah2 kat umah org tua2 nanti..=p

~kalut seketika~

penat..emotionally n physically..i slept 4 about 2hrs n woke up feeling ****...xsampai ati nak sebut out loud..there's too many words playin in my head (bermonolog sorg2 lg)..smue bnde jd xkne..rse nak campak je hp (my hp) dlm tgn kt dinding..i need music..bia pecah gegendang tlinge..so dat i can stop myself from bermonolog sorg2...dpt je dgr radio..u noe wat i did??i cried myself to sleep..well,i tried to sleep again senanye..but i end up cryin instead..till now..

i had a looong week..sgt penaaaaat...class penat..keje penat..da la risau xdpt call from bursa lg..cuak nk g intebiu lg..on top of dat..i didnt hv time 4 myself..but i also didnt want 2 b alone..funny how my frens dont notice how miserable i am dis week..mayb its becoz im gud at acting..ha ha..i fooled u didnt i...i even manage 2 spend time with all my frens..monday-wednsday ngn org len..slase-kamis ngn org len..mlm jumaat ngn org len..friday ngn org len..i felt fully booked maa..too bad..by de end of de week..i was too exhausted..abis sudaa tenage 4 dis week..i juz wanna go home..moody sudaa nk bedepan ngn org..

im gonna hate myself 4 posting dis..its too negative..but im posting it anyway..mcm lagu 2ne1..i dun care ee ee ee~..i bet most of u will think dat by mluahkn thru writing will sumhow legakn hati dan prasaan..unfortunately..not 4 me..haih..i think im mentally disturbed..

hmm,.. its best 4 me 2 stop writing..i hv a date with my Creator..da lambat sudaa..

~surat cinta ku yg tak kesampaian~

Syg ku Mama

Mama oh Mama...angah suke Mama panggil kami "kamu"..teringat atuk ngn wan kat kampung.."kamu ni angah.."..."kamu dah makan?".."kawan kamu tu.."..sgt chumel taw Mama sy neh..pekat btul pahang die tuh..

Mamaku syg..angah syg Mama..tp angah xde la mnunjuk mcm along tuh..angah tnjuk cool je..xmaen la nak showoff2 neh..hee..Mama nak taw x..from de bottom of my heart kan, there r no words dat can describe how honoured i am 2 b ur daughter..Engkaulah Ratu Hatiku~

Mamaku syg..mcm2 onak ngn duri kita smua da lalui kan..Mama nanges,kami pun turut mnanges..Mama kecewa,kami bertambah2 kecewa..tp kn Mama..angah salute la sama Mama..Mama sgt kuuuaaat orgnye..diam2 Mama tuh..lembut2 Mama tuh..pergh..mantap seyh..(maaf Mama,pngunaan bhase yg kurang seswai..ampuuun kan daku)..

Mama dun worry2 eh..angah ngan along da nak grad da..smpi ujung thun ni je..nanti kami cari keje elok2..pastu leh la Mama retire..da 30thun da mama keje kn..pasal qeyla nanti bia kami yg tanggung..(chewaah)..Mama mintak je ape2..nanti kami tunaikan ye..insyaAllah..

Papa ku syg

Papaku yg garang..Papaku yg macho..Papaku yg charming..de 1 n only Papa..angah taw Papa nak anak laki...hehe..ala Papa..anak pmpuan pun ok wat..kami smua bleh jage Papa..no worries..kami kasi 1st class pnye laaa..

Papaku syg..wuteva happens,we're still ur daughters..u're still our father..n we have de DNA 2 prove it..heee..juz noe dat,we do love u..n we do care about u..syg Papa slalu..

Along

Wahai kembar ku yg tak seiras maupun sebaya..hv i told u lately dat i love u??well,if i hvn't..then i guess its my bad..hee..tp weh..angah ade taw bisik2 kata2 cinta time ko ngah molek ternganga tido ari tuh..

Along,u'r such a dear sister 2 me..sgt caring taw kakak sy yg sorg neh..supportive gile..i'm glad u end up with zarul now..coz u'r such a better person when he's around..(kembang la tuh..taw daaa)..

Along..nanti kan..same2 kite bangkit n make our parents proud taw..i want u 2 b part of my life as much as i want 2 b part of ur life..

Qeyla

Ini budak sy sorg je yg panggil die Nura (NURAqilah)..my Nura..our Nura..Nura yg depan org laen sgt cool..tp depan kami sgt mngade2..Nura adikku yg plg bongsu..my baby sis..Nura yg da 20thun..tp maseh d layan mcm bdk2 belasan thun..haa..sbb tu lah wahai adikku Nura,awk slalu terlepas kalu wat salah tau..mane aci..grow up la sis..(nasehat sorg kakak kpd adiknye)..

Nura,u taw kan i syg u??kita kan slalu nonton tb same2..pastu mkn buah same2..pastu kan u kan slalu cite psl bf u kat i..pastu i kan pndengar setia u..i do love u sis..tp 1 je..angah nak minx maaf la psl kes dulu2 2..time 2 angah kcik lagi..sori la asik tolak Qeyla kat tangge..tergolek2 Qeyla jatuh tangge ye..pastu sorila ade terbaling cawan kaca kat Qeyla..sampai skrng parut die ade lg kan..sori sgt2 dear..angah jeles kot time 2..sape suh kua cepat sgt..angah baru 3thun ko da kua..mane la puas nak manje2 ngan dorang lagi..=p

~da jd blogger da sy neh~

yosh...like evri1 else...i'm now officially a blogger..n it's all thanx to Cik lyana lulu..my bff since form 4..de 1 who carries all my 'suka duka'..(as malay puts it)...i owe u BIG time dear...breakfast at MOKKU 2morow ya..i blanje u roti canai..hehe...thnx 4 spending 3hrs (sampai xjd mandi ye na..haha) setting up my blog..i'm impressed..it's sooo me..luv ya..bububububu..aaaaaaaaaaa...=)

To be honest, i'm not a good writer nor a poet like she is..(4 those who hvnt read her blog..go ahead..u'll be amazed..she's a good poet taw..she made it all by herself ->lululinana.blogspot.com)

in fact, i hate essays..tp rase best la plak ade blog..i cud share my thots out loud..normally i juz keep dem all wrapped up in my head (bermonolog dalaman taw)..i dun think it's healthy..yelaa..ckp sorg2 mne plak elok nye..nnt olang ingat u gila maa..

maka terhasil lah kesahqaseh ku ini..inilah luahan hatiku..inilah coretan kesah qaseh ku..segalanye thru my window n my window alone..

smoga anda terhibur..